Creative Outlet

I am starting this blog as a creative, and therapeutic, outlet for me to express what my life, as an autistic adult, is like. I do not care to gain a following, or receive attention for the posts I share. I am simply expressing myself on a public platform to give a voice to myself,…

Words…

They are right on the tip of my tongue, as they say, but I'm at a loss for them many times of the day They are simple, they are easy, they should just roll out, Unfortunately my brain hasn't quite figured that out. It may be something simple, just a syllable or two, it could…

Drowning

I was thrust in this position from the minute I was born, I never wanted to live this life, I never said I could take on every storm, But time and time again I'm called upon to fix it all, little do they know that I'm terrified myself, as my fragile, stack of cards is…

Limbo

The chaos of the days have me lost within myself, I'm functioning on the outside but inside I really need help, I'll always be there to take on the world, I've always had this role, But watching loved ones go through suffering and pain will always take its toll, There's no time to be selfish…

Take the Fall

I will take your pain, and take your problems, and take your shame I will take your mountains and try to move them all the same I will take my last breath, while drowning in my own misery just to ensure your above water, with your survival guaranteed I will take the tears and wipe…

The Window

The glass separates the life outside from me I'm withering like a plant exposed to winters air Waiting for a change, knowing one isn't there The glass hides my truth The drapes cover my despair I long to live a life so fulfilling like all the rest But I'm stuck like glue to this place…

Miscommunication

The worst part of being autistic is the realization that no one can understand the inner workings of your mind. Things that are so vital to the brain of an autistic are minimal or unimportant to neuro typical beings. It's hard because I was diagnosed at a later age, so much damage has been done…

Name

What is in a name Must it remain the same When it causes so much discomfort and pain And one of the people who gave it to you is to blame It's a shame . . Identity through words that hold little meaning Gender identification, jobs, lifestyles, importance All the assumptions are quite demeaning I…

No Changes

There can't be any shift to the way it has to be, There's something quite amiss today, And it's really shaking me There's things out of place, And people not quite right, I need time and space, Before my brain kicks in fight or flight . . It's something subtle and you never knew, It…

Alone in the Dark

Alone in the dark just feeling like a kid Watching everything slip away And pretend it never did Waiting for a moment to come Where peace is my place And I'm having some fun But instead all I have is the strong urge to run . . The people surrounding me don't even know The…

Trapped Inside

It is like the world is moving But I am only standing still I desperately try to catch up Never have, and never will The speed in which they're moving Makes me dizzy as I reach Desperately trying to touch them Desperately trying to speak Do they even notice? Do they even care? I have…